I did something creative

It's been a while since I posted anything. All kinds of zany shit going on in my head right now, but I'll focus on something positive and fulfilling.

I was a part of an INCREDIBLE wedding last weekend (10/06/13) and got to flex my budding seamstress wings in the process. I did some minor alterations to a dress, but I'm pretty proud of the outcome and wanted to share.


So here's the dress in it's original glory. It's a size 6. Um. Yeah... I am not.

First step was to take the lace around the waist off. I pulled out my trusty seam ripper and went to town. Here's the dress with the lace removed.

Then I pinned on the copper ribbon that would be replacing the lace. I only stabbed myself 20 times, but was very pleased with the look.

Here is the ribbon fully stitched into place. The ribbon is wired, so it laid down nice and flat for stitching! Only stabbed myself 10 times getting it on!

So the back was a little more tricky, and I didn't take overly fabulous "during" pictures. Ok, I didn't take any, haha. For the back I cut a modesty panel out of the skirt liner and stitched it in along the right side of the zipper (which was kept fully unzipped). The left side of the modesty panel hooks into place with hook & eye closures. Since I had plenty of ribbon left over, and the back had a weird pucker to it, I decided to throw in a slight corset back. Along the zipper, I measured out loops and made them out of the same copper thread that I stitched the ribbon onto the dress with. I then threaded the ribbon through and voila! Corset back! I blew up the below picture slightly so you can see the loops the ribbon goes through and the modesty panel in back.

And here is an action shot from the actual wedding. You can see the modesty panel in place and I tucked the loose ends of the ribbon into the back of the dress. In this shot I am fastening the beautiful brides shoe. Love those shoes. Love that girl!! I had a great time at the wedding, and I had fun working on the dress too! <3

Wrist Appointment

Well, it didn't go as well as I had hoped... my wrist still isn't fused. The carpals are all meshing together nicely, but the actual wrist (where my hand attaches to my forearm) still has a bit of a gap. I'm having it rechecked in 2 months. If it STILL isn't fused by that time, then we'll probably have to inject the wrist space with more "bone graft material" and see how it goes. I mentioned that I was having a great deal of discomfort lately, and she suggested I continue to do my own hand therapy, but keep lifting things with my left hand to a minimum. Lifting things might be causing little microscopic tears where those last 2 bones won't fuse, prolonging my healing. So I have to cut it's use waaaaaaay back.

 

Sucks, but it is what it is.

 

I'm trying not to feel disappointed and defeated, but it's hard. We are 2 months post-op and I STILL can't use my hand. It's just a little discouraging.

Busting My Butt (In A Good Way!)

I've been pretty quiet lately - mostly because I have been completely obsessed with working out and tracking my calories. I am so determined to loose weight and get fit... and doing it the right way! :)

This week I'm down 2 lbs. I've been tracking everything and thus far I've burned 900 calories. That's this week. To say I'm proud is an understatement! I'm really working hard. My face has even started to slim down already... Thank goodness!!!



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Attempting to post from my kindle. Let's see if this app works!

Post Op Appt

Just got in from my latest post op appointment with Dr Rohde. Have I mentioned how much I like her? Cuz I do. She gets my weird humor and gives it to me straight. My kinda Doctor!

Today I actually asked if I could have copies of my xrays and asked if I had her permission to use her name in this little blog o' mine. She gave an enthusiastic "yes!" and even asked for the URL. So if you're reading, Doc, "hi!"

It was a pretty straight forward appointment. Cast cut off, arm xrayed, follow up with the doctor. Its not quite where she wants to see it, so the cast is ace bandaged back on until I can get it splinted. She had suggested using one of my old ones... but they all have a bend in the wrist, and I no longer do. So custom splint it is!

I popped over to hands/OT after my appointment and gave them my script and scheduled my appointment for tomorrow. Then I will be FREE from this cast! YIPPEE!!!!

So progress is being made and I'm a happier camper than I was the other day. Pain still sucks, but it's gradually getting better.

Here's my show and tell moment!

Alrighty, first set of x-rays are pre-op (before my surgery). I was nice and put the left on the left side, and the right on the right side. SO! The right side is a fairly normal/healthy wrist. The left side is pretty jacked up. From the side you can see how my metatarsals (hand bones) are not lined up with my radius and ulna (forearm bones). There is a definite disconnect when you compare them side by side.

The dysfunction is even more obvious looking from the top down. Look at my right hand. You can see all my little carpals (wrist bones) lined up nice and pretty. Then look at the left - they are all over the place! Some are even up on top of the others! Definitely not quite right...

And here we have it... The postop (after surgery) final product. This is my wrist. My hardware. My plate and 8 screws. My hand is crazy atrophied (where the muscle shrinks away from disuse), so it is super skinny. My middle finger metatarsal is also slightly crooked to the left, so it gives my hand a slight bend to the outside... but I suspect as I build the muscle back up in my hand, it will flesh out and not be so noticeable.

There you have it, folks. I'll post pics tomorrow if my splint is finished.

I Dreamed A Dream...

I love this version. Haven't listened to it in a really long time. The meaning is so different now... living with a chronic illness that slowly takes away everything you love about life.

"I had a dream my life would be... So different from this hell I'm living..."

Its a high pain, low morale kind of day.





Then, on YouTube, while sifting through some of my favorite singers, I come across this gem:

 

Ok, first of all, Brian Stokes Mitchell is my favorite baritone (sorry Dad...) and this song really moved me to remember the bigger picture. Plus epic crescendo's always make my hair stand on end. In a good way.

 

 

Speaking of epic crescendo's, this one gets me every time too:

 



My favorite tenor of all time, Luciano Pavarotti. The final stance when he's singing guts out? He's saying "Vincero! Vincero! Vincero!" which in Italian sounds like "vini-cello." Translation?

I will be victorious.

 

 

 

 

I hear you universe... I hear you. Vincero!

Post Op - 2 weeks

Here we are, 2 weeks post op.

I'll be completely frank. This surgery SUCKED. Pain management was really an issue for the first 5 days... but everything is under control and I am completely off prescription pain medications. Yay. There were several nights tho that I really was having a hard time... I feel very lucky that I had one of my best guy friends to talk to at 3am on several occasions, otherwise I may have gone mad.

So this begins my journey of learning how to use my arm/hand all over again. Everything is going to be different on that side... Everything.

Heres a couple pictures for those who are curious. If not, scroll quick. ;)

Shortly after surgery. Very swollen and uncomfortable. 

11 days post op - bandages come off and incision is revealed. Its lovely!

Detail of incision. Internal sutures and dermabond (skin adhesive glue)

I went with a nice black cast this time... Black goes with everything and is slimming, right? ;)

As for the actual surgery... Doc said it was "jacked up" in there, and she feels 100% confident this was the best choice. I'm also her youngest wrist fusion to date. I asked if that earned me a metal... "Why yes," she said. "Its in your arm!"

Very clever... ;D

I was missing cartilage in some spots, had mutating cartilage in others... it was just a mess. Now it will be so much better!


OH! I've also started the application process for disability. No clue how that will pan out, but I gotta give it a try.